IM CURSING my luck so far this season.

First it was my knee, then meningitis, and now I’ve done my knee again at the weekend.

When I went down against Hawthorn on the weekend I just heard a crunching sound and I lay there on the ground.

The first thing I thought was ‘here we go again, how’s my luck’. Just sitting there - and that’s all that was going through my head.

I was just frustrated and angry. All I could think was there’ll be more physio and more doctor.

I’ve always been a very superstitious person and I’m beginning to think I must have done something bad in my past life.

I don’t know if it’s a County Kerry thing, but my dad was very superstitious and my brother and I are too.

There’s a lot of people I know who play football at home in Kerry who are the same way, so that’s where I get it from.

I just haven’t been able to get a run of games under by belt bar the first four, which is annoying.

When I went off the field I went straight over to the doctor and he checked to make sure that my cruciate was intact, which it was.

Then I went down into the rooms with the doctor (Nathan Gibbs) to see what was going on and if I could go back on because I didn’t really know what was happening.

I just wanted to get out of the sight of people really and he said I was no good for the game, which I wasn’t, as I couldn’t even lean on the knee.

So I just sat on the bench and watched the rest of the match.

I was just wishing I could be out on the field. Blokes were coming on and off tired and I just wanted to be out there.

It’s a pain in the arse not being able to help the boys. At quarter time and half time I went and talked to them about how they were going and how the game was going and tried to help them out.

They were super though. We lost Luke Ablett about half an hour before the game started, in the first minute I went down, and Darren Jolly was struggling with injury throughout the game. We were very under-manned, so it was a super, super win.

I think we were more disciplined on the weekend. Defensively we were good.

The week before against Essendon, that was where we fell down. We were very hot and cold in that game but I think, bar the slow start we had at the weekend, it was probably the most consistent three quarters we’ve played.

Attacking we still weren’t great, we didn’t use the ball very well and we turned it over quite a bit and that’s an area we really need to work on if we are going to win more games.

When we do get the ball we need to work harder for each other and use the ball better. I think it was our defence that won us the game.

It was great, having lost the week before, to get ourselves back up and the boys were delighted in the rooms afterwards.

Hawthorn have been beating everyone and were having such a good run so it was really good to get up and get over them.

After the game the boys went upstairs to a post-match function but I just stayed down in the rooms and waited for them to come back.

Luckily our flight back to Sydney on Saturday night wasn’t full and I got to stretch out over a few seats. I had taken a few painkillers so I wasn’t too uncomfortable on the flight.

The worst thing was that I couldn’t get my scan done until Tuesday because of the long weekend.

You’re always hopeful that it’s not too bad but there’s always that thought in the back of your mind that it could be the end of your season. You just don’t know.

Sometimes you think you’ll be fine and then other times you’re thinking that you could end up on the operating table.

The worst thing is not knowing, so having to wait over the long weekend was awful.

I just sat in front of the TV for the weekend. Ryan O’Keefe had his engagement party on Sunday but I didn’t go.

Monday I watched the Melbourne v Collingwood game. It wasn’t a very nice way to spend the long weekend when the whole country’s out partying, but that’s just the way it is I suppose.

On Tuesday I went for my scan at 7am. Then I was just waiting for Gibbsy (the doctor) to come into the club so he could look at them.

I went for breakfast and was a bit anxious when I had the scans in my hand. I just wanted to be able to read them.

When the doctor came in at 9am he said I wouldn’t need surgery, which was a huge relief.

He said it was good because I hadn’t chipped any of the bones on the joint surface and that the knee joint was intact. The tendon was also fine, which is great news.

There is bruising to the bone, which needs to heal naturally, so there’s nothing I can do about it really.

With bone bruising it’s hard to tell how quickly you’ll come back, which is different to when I dislocated my kneecap, because there is a definite schedule for your recovery. With bone bruising it just depends how you heal yourself more than anything.

For the first two weeks I’ll be off my feet, just doing upper body weights and maybe a bit of boxing.

Possibly at the end of the week or perhaps next week I can jump on a bike. It’s really all about rest and giving the knee a chance to heal.

Rehab is a massive pain to tell you the truth. The thing is you’re mostly outside the group.

The main group train as one and they’re doing everything together but you’re on a different program.

You’re doing weights on your own and you’re always in the physio and doctor’s room. You really are out of the circle. It’s very, very boring.

It’s hard as well being away from my close family because you’d like to have them around you.

Stephen (Doyle), my housemate, has been fantastic though. He’s really been looking after me since I got injured.

But he’s been busy himself. He’s studying social science and had a 2500-word assignment due in which he’s just finished, so he’s been up to his eyes.

My mum Nuala is coming out to visit in July though which is great. She’ll be here for three weeks with my aunt.

At least she can cook and clean for me when she gets here so that Stephen won’t have to be my maid any more.

He’s been cooking and cleaning so much, he practically booked the flight for my mother to come out here.

As for how I’ll spend my time during our next few games, I’m not sure.

I’ve been in the coach’s box before but I don’t have a good record. We’ve lost all four games that I’ve been in the box for so, with me being superstitious, I’m not sure that I’ll go in there again.

I’ll have to have a chat to Roosy (coach Paul Roos) and see.

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